The plastic muslim. Is the one that plays at being a muslim. Prays five times, wears the beard, looks and acts the part but is anything but a muslim.
He/she will sell and or consume narcotics, he/she will drink alcohol, he is married and will have extra marital affairs, or be sexually active before marraige, he will do all that a non muslim will do yet coat himself in the veil of piety.
I had elements of that. There are still things that I would never do, or condone. Im not here to judge nor be judged.
I had to steer a path through tough seas on a ship with many a different character. I had to conceal my true self to protect him from harm, I confess I wasn't able to be the man I wanted to be. It was a bridge too far. I compensated for my deficiencies and hoped I could make back the spiritual losses before my time on earth ended.
I had to be a person who I had to be in order to get through this life. I am still that person...I know that I am weak, I know that I'm easily tempted, I know that there are times where I will slip up and make a mess of things.
I don't think even now, that I could be so pious and observant that I would like to be, I've got a lot of work to do just yet.
I was a non practising muslim because its better to be that than a plastic muslim. I make no excuses for whatever I did. I do not hide the fact that I did whatever I did. Those of you Muslims that have the need or want to judge me. So be it. That is your choice. I'd rather be a non practising muslim than a plastic one. Even now!
For those of you reverts that are choosing to opt in and out of obligations or responsibilities. Don't hide behind excuses that make you out to be jaheel! You're even worse than I am.
Once you've made your commitment, do it, otherwise don't!
The people that know me, know me for who I am. I went out and revelled. I never made out to be anything else. This is my cross to bear. The bill for this party has yet to be paid by me.
Me just looking in on myself, and questioning who I am!
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