It was a pretty heavy day yesterday, I managed to complete the fast and begin the fourth. I was tempted to throw in the towel, albeit for a fleeting moment. Temptation is rife, during a normal month, what I've found is the more we succumb to temptation, it builds up to weaken your resolve to fast during Ramadan.
I was looking for any excuse to not fast, I'm glad I won and not the excuse. It took years to get back here. I was a non practising muslim. I had deen very much in my heart. I just hated the fact that I was insufficiently equipped to deal with it. I had issues. I didn't want to be a hypocrite. I've got no excuse that could justify some of my sins. There is no answer for them. There will be nothing I can say or do. Like I said, the tab for that party is yet to be paid, it will be paid and it will be in full. Thankfully no interest, lol. I had to lighten it up, but it's no laughing matter really.
Ayah of the day:
Satan seeks only to breed enmity and spite among you by means of wine and gambling and to hinder you from remembering Allah and praying. Will you abstain from (these evil temptations)?
Al-Quran, Al-Maidah (5:91).
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